Carolyn was never alone.
It wasn’t just after their deaths that everyone learned John and Carolyn’s addresses. She had already moved several times since she met him in 1992. She first lived in the East Village when she moved to New York from Greenwich, Conn. in 1989, then Greenwich Village in 1993 when paparazzi started staking out her apartment, and then moved to her new West Village digs in 1994 after paparazzi started stalking her again.
Carolyn moved into John’s Tribeca loft at 20 North Moore in 1995 without a doorman or security.
Photographers waited outside for her every morning while John and countless others assured her that her dads would settle down once they got married. And reports of their relationship, which many say was as passionate and intrusive as before, only got worse.
In the eyes of the media, John always appeared as a generous public figure, rollerblading and riding his bike around town, romancing stars like Darryl and Madonna, and accepting media attention as part of his life. So when she begged her girlfriend, then wife, to give her a break, sometimes by holding a dagger in his eye, sometimes by jumping on the hood of a photographer’s car, Carolyn ended up being blamed for the decline in tolerance.
As Beller points out, it didn’t seem to occur to the press that John’s hackles were raised because he loved Carolyn and wanted to protect her, even though she was clearly suffering.
